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-what is God but an idea for something we do not know
but who am I to guess on eternity and the things unknown
-I feel that i should just be quite and do what i am told
and fall in line and not be so bold
-But if there is a higher power out somewhere in the galaxy
than he gave me the will to think and thinking is ecstasy
-with this high of knowledge i know i really am oblivious
to really anything worth knowing but i am trying this is obvious
-the idea of death scares me i don't want to be a pile of bones
yet in life we are faced with questions of love, hate, friendship and i have realized i already am alone
-But still the question remains what is beyond this flash of light
is there a God waiting to judge the choices of my life
-If he is there what is he going to tell me
when all of my choices thus far have been selfish and ugly
-would i let myself into the kingdom of love
or send myself to hell never able to look above
-The fact remains that i am undecided
and nothing in my life has persuaded or enlightened
-I find myself searching for the answers
But i keep turning to the toxins of the world that bring me cancers
-Please God send me a sign so that i may be changed
before my heart, mind, body, and soul will slip away alone, sad, and aged

Fire

-I close my eyes and see only darkness
but in doing so i have failed to witness
-The wonders that this world potentially holds
I better wake before i am too old
-Because life is a fire, burning bright and furious
but in my dreams it all seems overrated and fictitious
-people live day by day behind false hopes and dreams
they ask WHY when life passes by as they sit looking behind a screen
-Fantasy over reality that is what many humans have chosen
But what can fantasy bring to the people who are truly broken
-When their imagination is interrupted with the trials and tribulations of life
most run and hide fearing life more than the sharp blade of a knife
-it saddens and pains me to see the life wasted by modern humanity
but all we have to do is awake from this white noise tragedy and open our eyes to the world and its true beauty
-so before this fire burns into infinity
I'm going to wake my tired eyes and rewrite my own history